It is difficult for me to know what feelings are real sometimes. I try to calmly think about them as they come but so often I am holding on for dear life that calm cannot be had. I found that when that happens my mind is not responsive to rational thought. It is not even responsive to requests for control.
How can I look at those things and determine if they belong to me? Or if they are even real.
I ask how can I implement a solution. I do not know. I have devoted a significant amount of time to implementation and since I do not think I will do this then I must find another solution. The other solution that comes to mind is a slow death for me. I do not care for the slow death method. Is the solution even real? What is real?
Yes, well short is all I have right now.