Tried To Remember

Last Friday I was writing in my journal.  It was typical until I wrote “I love You”.  I write to God a lot.  After I wrote that, I realized that it had been a while since I told God I loved Him.  I mean there are times we tell our spouse, children, family, or any loved ones that we love them but do not really feel it.  The difference between saying it to my children when I wake them up and when I drop them off at school is the same “problem”.  I enjoy their presence with joy when I wake them up but saying it when dropping them off at school is more rote than any feeling.  This morning I felt that love for God and tried to remember the last time I felt it and said it.  I feel the awe of God pretty regular and I am thankful constantly but this love is not as easy to reproduce in my heart.