The Illusion

I have a text message reminder set for 4:30 am and 8:00 pm every day.  Some days the message indicator goes off on my phone and I think, I wonder who that could be, maybe I have a friend.  And then I realize what time of the day it is and that I have no friends.

It is an illusion in life.  I wrote a few ideas down some weeks ago.  I told someone that I could not be friends with anyone.  Married men are excluded by the fact that they should be working on their family.  Married women are excluded because the world would misconstrue the relationship, the husband would get jealous, or one of us would be tempted.  Single men may be stigmatized or threatened with ideas of homosexuality.  Single women are even more dangerous than married women.

The illusion.  The darkness is very close.