The City on the Edge of Forever…
He stops himself from saving her. She dies so that the world will return to the way it was.
I remember the sadness. The heart hurts, aches.
Oh, I knew the pain was intense if I could feel it. So I prayed for you. I knew it was your pain because it was so familiar. I almost shared the prayer with you but had to refrain. The next night you told me of the pain you were suffering. I did not need to know the details because they would not change the feelings. I told you I would pray more and I did.
Is it always the same?
I was reading a book and continued to be awed by God’s grace. I could not help myself. Acknowledge and glorify the God who created the heaven and earth. Joy beyond understanding.
I do not want to see you. I do not want to feel your pain. Yet it to is a gift from God. I do not know if this sadness is my own.
Recently God gave me the word “creation”. I kept trying to put the pieces together but my mind could not. After reading a different book, more words came to mind. Words that could be combined to create real ideas. Ideas for advancement. It is a beautiful thing to get this.
There is still more to read. More to accomplish. More to push forward on.
I would love to fall tonight. Into the deep sadness. I wonder if God would let me…