I was filled with great joy earlier this morning when someone told me that they had value. Those were not the exact words but it was an amazing statement coming out of this person’s mouth. They do not see their own worth and so they allow themselves to be treated poorly in life.
I had told this person how much I valued them previously but over the past few months I made extra effort to repeatedly tell them how valuable they were to me. They would say they understood but I do not think they accepted it. When they said those words, I made them repeat them for me. This sort of effort is not easy for me but I knew it would be worth it. I must keep pushing forward in this area of my life. Giving people words of affirmation even when I find no value in those words myself. Strange.
That joy did not last long. I feel like I crash easier after a joyful feeling. Yes, I realize that going up on a scale and then falling back to “normal” may feel like a crash but I rarely feel like I fall back to that level. I feel like I fall below that level.
There is no solution to that. We cannot stay on peaks forever and valleys are valleys for a reason.
It is so cold that I want gumbo for lunch but I’ll just have a sandwich instead.