She Will Not Find Them

I am really enjoying this study of Hosea.  This week we will read Hosea 2:6-7 for family worship.

Then she will pursue her lovers, but she will not catch them;
she will seek them, but she will not find them.
Then she will say,
“I will go back to my husband,
because I was better off then than I am now.”

Hosea 2:7

Even after being disciplined, Israel still refuses to repent and turn to the Lord.  They pursue and seek lovers but they will not find them.  Only when they are utterly destitute do they go back to their husband.

In a similar fashion, I refused to follow God for most of my life.  After Kara and I agreed to get divorced, I began seeking answers.  God found me and saved me during this time.  As I reflected on my life sometime near my salvation, I realized there were many points in my life where God had tried to bring me too Him but I was not utterly destitute.  I actually rattled off a list of several events where God was trying to call me to Him but I did not write them down and I have not found the memory trigger to recall them all yet.

But I do know that the time just previous to my conversion, I was literally on the floor of my bathroom in such pain (emotionally) that I could not get up.  Yet, I was still too stubborn to turn to Him.  I thought I could fix the problem myself.  I had never relied on the Lord for anything, why start now?  I know now that God was destroying an idol in my life to make room for Him later.

Only when that specific idol was completely destroyed was God able to save me for Himself.