I was on the white board recently and asked the question “what makes you happy?” I wrote a few days ago about being most satisfied in Him. But specifically having deep conversations on the things of God really brings me to life. I noted that being with my kids and reading are also on the list of things that make me happy. I know most people do not think that my kids should be a side note but the joy from God makes everything else pale in comparison. And reading made the list because I love to read books about God.
This brought about the question “so why do you waste your life?” This answer came rather quick. Because no one really wants to discuss God in this way. I know absolutes are bad but this is the way it feels. This next thought that came to mind surprised me. What did God tell Isaiah and Jeremiah?
God wasn’t really interest in if anyone listened. Their job was to proclaim His glory. This is all easy to grasp of course but sin is easy to consume. You know thoughts come crashing into my mind at an alarming rate. Wave after wave of sinful thoughts and desires pounding in my head. I compare the pleasure of sin to the pleasure of speaking on the things of God but it is not even the same league. Sin always leaves me empty but yet I still crave it more than I crave God sometimes.
Hebrews 12:4 just resonates with me – “You have not yet resisted to the point of bloodshed in your struggle against sin.”
To the point of bloodshed! What a violent scene this creates. And it is violent. Very violent…