I seems strange that I can read and pray each morning yet still fill far from God. I started Jeremiah again and Jeremiah 2:32 says “But my people have forgotten me for more days than can be counted.”.
I have a note from September 2014 on this verse talking about my distance from Him. I do not have any detail on the note but there may be some in my journal.
No one can ever really know. We are alone with God and God alone.