It seems I already had a post titles My Heart’s Desire. I was worried that I may have even written the post in my head. There are always so many words and it is difficult to keep track. We have the same feelings and yearnings in our heart. Then we forget those feelings and yearnings until later when they return. It is a big cycle we fall prey too.
I started to read Romans 10 and I could not get past verse one without being overwhelmed.
Brothers, my heart’s desire and prayer to God for them is that they may be saved. –Romans 10:1 (ESV)
Earlier in chapter nine, the Apostle Paul even says he wishes he was accursed, cut off from Christ, for the sake of his people. The first time I studied Romans with a small group I shared that I had the same wish for the sake of my children. God worked on me the next few weeks and I realized that the group of people had grown to include several people close to me that I believe are not saved. God continued to work on me and I realized that the group of people had grown even more. This time it included everyone I could think of, even those people I did not particularly care for. I do not really understand this. It makes little to no sense but I can feel this desire in my heart even now, so many years later.
Later this feeling may diminish. I have prayed that it would not but it always seems to. I have wondered if the soul could manage this type of intense feeling for long periods of time. Our physical bodies become exhausted from things such as this.
My heart’s desire and prayer to God for them is that they may be saved. We write their names down and the list of unbelievers never ends. We trust in God to save those who belong to him.