Just A Few Weeks

Well the last few weeks have been an intense battle.  I have been fighting depression, loneliness, pain, anxiety, and just about anything I could put on myself.  But the last few days have eased up.

You never know how long the battles will last.  Nor do you know how quickly it will return (if it returns).  I would says that I am “always” fearful of the return.  Two nights ago as I was driving to get Kristen from dance the weight came upon me and I thought “is it not gone?” But the weight was only a fleeting feeling that did not stay.

I’m not sure how others cope but I try to recognize patterns that cause the depression and work to avoid them.  Unfortunately there are always new patterns that I fall into so we pull ourselves out and try to recognize the new patterns and move forward.

It is good to be writing again.