I saw something today that just knocked the wind out of me – as they say. I escaped it for a bit thinking about “forward thinking” and then “free thinking” (if such a thing can exist).
I broke down and upgraded my Logos 4 Bible study software to Logos 7 which was just released. I got a lot of new references with the upgrade. I think about 800 new books and the like. I was most excited about the sermons of Charles Spurgeon. I found volume one and read the intro. That will be a project – read the hundreds (thousands?) of sermons by Spurgeon.
The emotions returned. They pulled me down pretty far. Ericka distracted me the second time.
I would enjoy a nice conversation about the ramifications of autonomous cars, asteroid mining, whether free will exists or not, or something along those lines. One with a spouse who knew me. I am thankful for what I do have. I remember just last week continuing a conversation with Kristen on “Black Lives Matter”. That was a two hour joy. Oh, it was not all on that topic of course. We discussed many things as I am sure we will discuss again this Wednesday.
She has enjoyed her entrepreneurship class in high school so far. Thus, part of our talk was on businesses. She already has the idea for the business plan she will write for the end of the class assignment. A marketing company – using social media. I would actually be interested in seeing her attack the idea from a mobile perspective. The business name (idea) “Mobile Marketing Ingenuity” has been in my mind for over a year. I remember when it occurred to me and how I was missing something. I have still not found that missing piece.
I know I was attempting to combine several ideas into one and I kept reaching and reaching. Yes, I will attempt to remember this in our next talk. I imagine this could be combined with autonomous cars. Yes, that is the direction we should progress towards.
On a business note, I still have not found a partner or two for the new business. And yesterday at some point I was able to integrate another idea into the business and create a third business out of the one idea. It will be rather interesting if God allows me to do any of this. When I was talking to Him yesterday, I told Him I couldn’t do any of this without Him. There are very specific things that need to occur for any of my projects to progress and eventually succeed. None of which are under my control.
So I began to crash again tonight. Writing has helped slow it but not stopped it. I have been praying the verses in Daniel 2 for a few days. Daniel 2:20-23. The beginning of verse 21 says “He changes times and seasons” and that is very true. I have not surrendered the day to the sadness. If God does keep me one more day, His name will be praised forever and ever. If God does not, His name will still be praised forever and ever. It is a great prayer so go ahead and read it.
It is only 8pm. I suppose I will try to read a bit more. That is always a distraction of some level for the mind.