Call Down Fire

Hebrews 4:16 – Therefore let us confidently approach the throne of grace to receive mercy and find grace whenever we need help.

Confidence. Sometimes confidence in prayer is easy and other times it is not. As I began writing this, I was reminded of the passage in Luke where James and John ask Jesus if they should call down fire from heaven (Luke 9:54). Talk about confidence. I have actually thought about specific prayers over the past month where I prayed with confidence. The difference between those and other prayers said without confidence are striking in my mind. This difference should not surprise me as much as it does. As far as I can tell there was nothing I could have done to create this confidence. But I will say that confidence appears to build on itself. I go to the throne of grace expecting an answer with confidence more often than I used to.

Speaking of prayer. I have also been thinking about when I perform prayer with others. Praying out loud with or for others is so much different than just talking to God – even with my own children. I asked God to help me with this. Thursday night’s prayer with the kids felt more like talking than performing. Sounds sad I know but I am weak and need help from my Savior in all things. The steps always seem small but I think most of them are headed forward.