I wrote this back in January but never published it. As I read it again this past month I thought I should hit the schedule post button. I have grown since I wrote this but I still have some of these feelings and questions inside. Yes, sometimes it is about the answer but other times it is about the question too.
Are you a Christian? Are you a Christian if you read and understand the commands of God and do not do them? Jesus said to be baptized so if you are disobedient to God in this area are you a Christian? Jesus said to make disciples so if you are disobedient to God in this area are you a Christian? A Christian wants to do the will of God. A Christian wants to be obedient. So if our hearts have become so hard that we cannot be obedient we might need to question our Christianity.
2 Corinthians 13:5 – Put yourselves to the test to see if you are in the faith; examine yourselves! Or do you not recognize regarding yourselves that Jesus Christ is in you — unless, indeed, you fail the test!
Are you a Christian? Do you know because you said a prayer and got dunked? Do you know because you come to church on Sunday AND Wednesday? Do you know because you have a good feeling in your heart? Do you know because your parents go to church? Are you a Christian? Christians produce fruit – evaluate your life. Christians repent – leave sin behind. Are you a Christian? If we are not doing the works that show our faith then our faith is dead. Are spiritually dead people Christians?
Ephesians 2:4-5 – But God, being rich in mercy, because of his great love with which he loved us, even though we were dead in transgressions, made us alive together with Christ—by grace you are saved!
Are you a Christian? Do you love everyone? Do you love yourself? This makes me think the most. Agonize the most.